Processing the impact of my past is never ending. I have healed a lot of layers, there are more to be peeled back.
I am feeling so depressed. It’s lasting for days and days, and feels like a worse depression than I have had for a very long time. Desperately sad. Desperately lonely. Feeling like I am absolutely alone, that no one truly cares for me, even though I KNOW that is not … Read more
We went to mom’s on Wednesday. We took lunch, shepherd’s pie that was still a bit frozen so it took longer to cook than it should have, but oh well. I feel like my mother and I are strangers. I feel no real connection to her. When I see her, … Read more
I hated being at the farm, hated how it felt when I went there, hated how it made me feel even after I left. I couldn’t completely shake those feelings, no matter how hard I partied or worked or studied. Nothing worked to stop those feelings from creeping in. Doubt, … Read more